Saturday, August 20, 2005 Y
Well, first, i went to friendster and check it. Then i saw Rs's friendster the "about me". Well, he writes, "i have never being so serious in smt before.. " in another words, when he was with me, he was toying my feeling lah?!?! I was soooo damn freaking anry after reading tat. Oh the way to work, i really very moody. Cry on the bus. So long didn't cry already. The memories juz flash inside my mind. The feelnig is sooooooooo sucky.... Wanna msg leng de, but know tat she's slping. So i msg zhan he and jeremy. At tat point of time, i really need someone to lend me his/her shoulder, to let me cry all my heart out. Really sooooo sucky. Hai.. Then after tat meet serent for breakfast. She told me tat not to think of him, although say is easy than doing it, but can i really do it?? I always tot tat i am gonna give up soon but when am i feelnig this way now?!?!?! I wanna be in love again, to be in the arms of my love one once again. But how can i accept someone when there's still another person in my heart?!?!?! Shit me................ Jeremy says tat when the world is down, and the world seems to be dark, dun worry, there will be someone to show me care, and of coz, tat person is him. Well, is tat meant to be wat??? I juz want someone to hear me, to say out all my sorrows. Hai... He is a good guy ( i think). Today i am the cashier. At first is tally de, then after tat i shortage $2. Shit me, wasn't in a good state of mind to do cashiering. Sure shortage de. Actually i do have the feeling of shortage already. Hai.. Xiao jun saw me, she straight away know tat there's something wrong with me already. Am i really tat bad?? I mean, i am a total failure in this thing call relatinoship already. Can i believe in love again?? I dun think so........ Zhan he came and visited me. I know he cares for me, thanks anyway. Sorry to let you worry again. But i really can't help thinking. Is like, so sucky... Thanks zhan he... Hai.. was learning alteration. Kind how to unpick already. And now, i juz need to learn how to control the speed and how to sew it. Actually wanna watch the movie "the maid" one but i dun intend to stay up until tat late. I dun wanna miss my last bus. Some more the movie starts at 11.45 yes.... So dun intend to watch already. Next week see when i can watch the movie with her. Yah.. Suan le, i will still keep my promise, i will forget him sooner or later de...
Listen to my heart @ 10:04 PM
