Wednesday, June 15, 2005 Y
I am working at giordano ONLY for today. Lucky the snappers cancel away.. Well, shashi book me on the next wed to friday already. Same lor.. it's BREAKFAST!!!! I went to work at 5 then reach there at around 5.30. Em... Not much today... Mop the floor yah.. Still thinknig of whether or not to convert to full timer anot.. Hai... Oh yah, on the way back, i keep on thinknig of him... Seeing him in the friendster, i feel sooo weird... Dunnoe why... I know i am an idiot or wat but... read his testimonials, yah yah.... Well, i know u guys will keep on saying forget about him lah forget about him lah, no point thinking of him.. But, everywhere i go, there will be some part of memories tat has him. I mean, the place.... Like sun tec, even the east side (tamp) tat side oso have. Coz tat time we went to pula ubin. I'm in a dilemma i tell you... Really... I know u guys will thinking tat no point thinking of him if tat person didn't even think/miss you, but, tat's me.. I wish to be strong, like yx, but why can't i do it??? I juz can't get ride of the root tat's inside my heart. All i know is, he has occupy a place in my heart already. For 2 months plus, we didn't contact le... Work is wat i'm doing right now.. To keep me busy.. And dun rmb all the things. Sometimes i wonder, wat if i see him on the street?? Will i call him or juz pretend tat i dun see him??? Hai.. Dunnoe lah.. I wanna run away from everything and anything. I now run away doesn't help but all i can do now is wat??? Work?? 3 part time jobs already!!! I am sooo freaking tired... But i still think of him....... Everytime i sign into my friendster account, i will think of him. Idiot.... Wat the heck am i doing?!?!?!?!?!
Listen to my heart @ 11:59 PM
