It's hard to let go.. But i guess i will let go... It's our 2 mths anniversary today.... I guess tat's all... It's the end... Tok to ray and isk.. Alot of stuffs lah... Anyway, tok until this morning 7.25 am... I had to work today yes... Reach ritz cartlon at 4.30. Kind of blur.. I dunnoe the routh.. Last time oso like tat. So pai seh... At first, i dun have the mood to smile with the friends over there, but after thinking wat isk and ray told me, i try to smile. But still, it's not myself.... It's a wedding dinner today... Saw the groom and the bride came in, i think of ren shing's promise... Suddenly felt liked crying but... yah.. I'm a waitress yes... keep on thinking of him... Thinking the groom and the bride are us.... (which is totally an imangination). Kind of sad for a moment. Oh yah, before tat, i very pai seh, i didn't balenced properly then all the green chilli plates all dropped onto the floor. Lucky it's before the dinner, if not i sure kana scolded on my first day one. The manager wasn't quite happy over me... Today it's juz not myself... Usually i will tok to ppl first, but... really du nhave the mood to go and say hi to friend...Yah... Anyway, suan le... Know quite alot of ppl voer there. Actually i was in group H de. There got this guy damn cute yes.. Then i change to K group. So sad.... At least i know how to joke... Seriously, i dunnoe whether i can be like last time tat cheerful anot...... And friendly, i tend to hide myself already.... I scare i can't be myself again.... Tml it's the deadline already, will he give me the answer tat i want?? Or something else?? I dunnoe... The only thing i can do now is wait.... Whatever the answer is, i will do things which i think i will.... See how....
